By all accounts I have a job that serves me well. The pay is ok, not amazing but enough to live on, however as I manage my own schedule I have a great work life balance, and know the industry well as have worked in it for coming up a decade; I can do the job with my eyes closed.
However, I am being crushed by the fact the job goes entirely against my morals, as it's working for large alcohol drinks manufacturer...and I am a recovering alcoholic.
The role doesn't at all trigger me to drink, and there is no pressure to actually consume the products. However, I feel like an utter fraud talking about and being involved in products that caused such devastation to me.
I know that it is a choice to consume alcohol and that most industries have their own moral ambiguities, but my job feels so juxtaposed to my life and my morals I am struggling daily to get by. As an added complication I have ADHD so I find motivation difficult at the best of times!
However, on the other hand I don't know what on earth I would do if I left, and also I feel like I'm unlikely to find a role that gives me the work/life balance that I currently have!
Has anyone managed to work a role that goes against their values? Did you manage to suck it up and continue? Or do I need an exit plan ASAP?