Is anyone else burned out from hosting?

[Sonolanona]

I like my family.. genuinely, we all get on and it's nice to see everyone.
But we all have small houses, ours is the biggest (bog standard 3 bed semi..I'm not bragging!) so everyone comes to me. I've had a variety of family members here from the 23rd, last lot went today.

I feel ill.. absolutely wiped out and like I would like to hibernate in a warm dark cave and not speak for a week. I don't mind cooking, I'm happy to provide the vast majority of the food and drink, but the chaos and mess they all create ( adult kids with partners, toddlers, elderly parent) just leaves me mentally exhausted. They don't MEAN to, but I find it difficult to just not have any peace.

Two of my kids are autistic, and while I have never sought diagnosis , I know it's from me... I find change very difficult, untidyness very distressing and I need a huge amount of alone time, amongst a lot of other traits.

But I don't feel I can say no, as they rely on my hosting. I feel mentally trashed !

I’ve felt a bit like this over Xmas and new year. I don’t think it helps that the break has seemed shorter this year, so it’s all been a bit more concentrated.

I genuinely love doing all the cooking and organising, but this year I am beyond tired. We finished the season off with a new year party last night. Today I have done nothing all day except watch Tv and sleep.

Yes. Yesterday afternoon I was quietly sobbing to myself because I was SO tired and still prepping for hosting a jeffing NYE party after having two sets of rellies over Christmas. I just wanted to hibernate. I overcooked a main dish for 16 people and had to chuck it and start again. I just had no desire to see anyone. But the party was great and a lovely start to the New Year. And now I am not hosting anyone for over a month.