Been told I have a victim mentality (maybe I do ? I can’t work out if I need to accept maybe I do or if I’m being manipulated to have the blame placed on me?)
What I do know is that as a child and teen I was badly let down - by the education system, the nhs and my mother. No support no intervention - nothing. My mother was allowed to refuse assessments for me (as an adult I’ve been diagnosed with asd and adhd).
I was emotionally and physically abused at home , I wasn’t supported at all at school so academically failed despite being clever. Couldn’t hold down any jobs and made mistake after mistake in my personal life.
Im angry about it all still. A comment was made yesterday about how I could have ‘turned things round’ but I’d rather ‘play the victim’
I do have self awareness and yes I probably could do more to pull myself out of the hole im in but even with that accepted i know I had no control over my childhood and teenage years! I feel as if im meant to just not mention it as it makes other people feel uncomfortable??!!
Im just ranting but it’s really irritated me that this is how im viewed - I fully accept that I do sometimes feel sorry for myself but I don’t like the attitude toward what was done to me and how im being told to ‘get over it’