My break up is really hitting me this Christmas

[Lilllypad11]

My ex and I separated in September this year. Things have been up and down since. But this Christmas I’ve found really hard. We were together 6 years and I haven’t known what Christmas has been like alone for a while. I’m at my parents house again but I can’t shake the feeling off. I’ve been fine for the last month or two up until now. I was doing really well but I’m just hitting rock bottom. Even while being on meds I’m feeling this way. I can’t pin point why but I just do.

I could do with some words of advice on Xmas day and how to stop feeling this way. When does it stop hurting.

Sorry you feel so down today. I had to part with someone this year too...and have been ok with it. I've done the usual stuff, the grieving, remembering the good bits, and the bad bits. Been philosophical, meditated, gone for long walks, kept busy...the lot. I was ok.

Then I crashed on Christmas Eve. I wasn't expecting it but it suddenly hit me that it was so sad, and I knew I was missing someone at a special time of the year and it could all be so different even though I know things can't change and wouldn't want them to.

So I can't help except to say I know how you feel and the season/the day is the reason. But I feel heaps better today [although I was in tears yesterday] and I hope you will feel much better tomorrow. As you say, you've been ok up till now. All the best.