I just did a painting, finished a cup of coffee, have red part of the very sappy Valentine’s Day book I have going at the moment, sweeter than chocolate. I might hang up some of the home decor Christmas stickers I bought today. But I just can’t sleep. Too much on my mind…
I really hope the next year will be better than this one. This one has been so difficult. Just to vent a little, and get this off my shoulders but I’m just very unsure about what direction to go in. I have owned a home since March, but since this place is in Greece, I’ve had to get used to the fires, the floods in September, little things like not being able to find a cleaner, etc. It has all taken a lot of time, and especially after the floods, when I have felt on some days like just getting out of here, I’ve had to step back, take things very easy, just enjoy little things like the Christmas cookies you can find at the moment, or the live music performances in the evenings, walks by the beach, or the beach hasn’t been totally destroyed, etc. I met someone on the road today who was very badly affected by the floods, had a lot of property damage and I think a lot of people are struggling.
I have managed to make some new friends over the past two months, I have join the foreigners club so I have learned about a lot of new things actually, including that where I live, if you like biblical stories in mythology, is the home of Jason in Jason and the Golden fleece. That’s kind of cool.
another very big thing on my mind is what I will be able to do for work. I am almost totally blind, usually very motivated and I had had some thing in mind before the floods, but now I am getting to know the place a bit better, and I know just what can happen after a big flood, I don’t want to do what I had in mind anymore. I had wanted to set up a little café or something, and have people working there with disabilities. Now, my thoughts are more along the lines of maybe doing an E shop, or maybe setting up a craft workshop, or even making things like chocolate or cakes or something, and possibly just delivering them but not having a physical shop. Again, I have a lot of things on my mind and I feel very confused at the moment. But also very worried. I do speak several languages, and the other possibility for me would be to do a two-year diploma in translation, and possibly find work online. I did find some thing at the moment, just a very small thing, teaching braille, which I do enjoy, but I just don’t know what I’m going to do in the long term.
I am also still working on setting up my home. I had ordered some furniture just before the floods, it finally arrived about two weeks ago. But with everything else I’ve had on my hands, I just haven’t had time or energy to finish making my home a home if that makes sense.
anyway, sorry for venting, and thank you for listening. If anyone else is up and can’t sleep, what are you doing to stay sane? Some of the other threads on mental health and coping have been really helpful lately.