Hello lovely Mumsnetters
I need some WWYD advice in this situation if you were me, or perhaps you've been me and would be kind enough to share your own experiences.
I wrote a post on here not so long ago (under a different name) about being assaulted (raped) by somebody in a highly regarded profession. The case is still going ahead, but it's very slow and everyday is feeling like a pressure cooker for myself. I am having an assessment tomorrow for counselling and trying to keep myself busy, making plans for next year and basically doing everything I can to keep my mind at bay.
The ordeal happened over a month ago. I have currently done everything I need to do legally thus far- police interview, forensics, medical, phone evidence. But at this stage with my mental well-being being so fragile, I am seriously thinking about dropping the whole case. Conviction rates are so damn low, that I don't think I could go through with the ordeal of going to court (even if it got to that stage) and the defence slut shaming me.
I desperately want answers, and the police and not really being very transparent. I am having to push for answers. I have been walking around with the worst anxiety imaginable about bumping into the perpetrator and only recently finding out that he lives nowhere near me (thanks Police!). The police have also told me I can drop the case if I want to, but they told me this without me even mentioning it. I just asked if they thought they had enough evidence to send to the CPS and they said they really hoped so, but couldn't guarantee.
What makes it worse is the perpetrator has dealings with the courts. So can you imagine what would happen if the police sent my case to the CPS and them knowing exactly who it is?! Would he have to inform the courts/his work about this? I just don't know. I'm one of those people who likes to know the facts and know everything to mentally get myself into a better mind space. Does that make sense?!
No idea why I'm posting this. Would just be interesting/nice to hear experiences of others who wouldn't mind sharing experiences of how much evidence they had for the CPS to make a charge. I believe there is enough, but I'm unsure. I want to save women from this man. He is dangerous and it was a violent attack. It makes me feel sick knowing he does what he does, and yet I feel he is laughing at genuine victims.
Thanks for listening.