I’ve been moaning for years how much I’m sick of my current job, how I don’t feel valued and put upon, no scope for progression or payrise due to being public sector. Never get recognised despite doing some great pieces of work which have been recognised outside of my organisation and even copied. I have been applying for jobs on and off and then get scared and then cancel or withdraw my application.
I went for a job that’s paying quite a bit more, commute the same, doing what I’m doing now but it’s a step up in responsibility and private sector. interview process was multiple stages and really hard, and to my complete surprise I was offered it which includes a good salary, flexible working so works around my little DCs and ultimately I can actually progress.
I’ve asked to think over the weekend and all of a sudden I’m having a panic about it and was crying all last night about it. My current job is frustrating but it’s meaningful work, I have a lovely and supportive team and have made some great friends, my manager is amazing, flexible working, and I’m comfortable. I have little children and all of a sudden scared I can’t do this, what if it’s too much to take a step up with little children in nursery. My husband said private sector is cut throat, more demanding. What if I make a massive mistake and I can’t do the job and get sacked or am hated and embarrass myself?
im a total mess, surely I should be excited?