I've always suffered from stress and anxiety but my worrying and overthinking is getting out of control. I've been having CBT for four years now and learned all the techniques but I still can't seem to alleviate the worry.
I was on Prozac for years and it was no longer working, my GP put me onto Setraline and that gave me a bad stomach so I had to come off it. I am now on a low dose of Citralopram and feel much better on this and it is keeping me stable as in my extreme depression and anxiety but I am still worrying. I have another CBT course coming up but the Talking Therapies team who I am with say I can't spend the rest of my life in therapy and have to try and grasp these techniques.
Basically I worry about everything. I live in a lovely flat in a lovely area, I rent it from the Council. I am now 62 and in good health but I worry that one day I won't be able to walk up the hill or the steps to my flat and will be forced to move. I worry that once I retire I will no longer be able to afford the rent, even though I will get a good private pension aswell as the state pension.
I am due to retire in five years time and am convinced that I will just be bored, though I have hobbies, family and many friends. I am divorced and live alone which I am happy with but all these thoughts go round and round in my head.
I worry that one day I will get a serious illness. Every time I hear of someone getting cancer, which seems often these days, it sets me off again.
I also overthink things and get paranoid. As an example my sister in law texted me yesterday about a meeting for an Xmas meal with a mutual friend, we have had a lot of meals recently and as I am the only one who works she just said if I'd rather not go this time she will go with our friend and we can arrange something else in the New Year. I said I want to go and she immediatley booked for us all but I started feeling that maybe they didn't want to me go and was giving subtle hints.
My next CBT course is for health anxiety. Has anyone else had CBT and use the techniques or suffers from constant worrying and has learned to cope with it?