Just want a moan as feel so down and defeated this morning.
I’ve been a single parent for the last 7 years. 2 DS. No family help at all. Eldest has various SEN and anxiety and is very challenging. Can’t be left with babysitters etc so I’m effectively trapped in the house outside school hours which I hate. Parenting him is hard with little up sides if I’m honest. Then try to make life as ok as possible for my youngest.
I work full time - had a horrible year with lots of quite serious health issues. Finally all better and eldest now in high school and I thought I’d try and move roles at work to do something more fulfilling. Need to make a good impression. I’m good at my job, was I guess viewed as a high achiever etc years ago but DC needs meant I’ve had to stay at the same level doing a ‘safe’ role.
Anyway sounds silly but DC is ill again and off school. Even though older it’s been one illness after another this term. I know it’s the time of year but I’m going to have to wfh again, miss the Xmas lunch ( important for being seen as part of new team) and just generally look unreliable again.
Usually manage to stay positive but just feel like crying - it’s like no matter how hard I try to build a life it just gets knocked back.