At breaking point and more keeps piling up on me

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I feel like I want to somehow ‘pause’ my life 😩

Every day there’s more and things are already hectic. I feel like I’m juggling multiple things every waking minute and I can’t keep the pace up . I’m heading for a shutdown.

it’s affecting my health and I keep coming down with things.

Ive had a look at my diary and there are only 8 days between now and Christmas where I have no appts or meetings but I know at any moment that might change (or there could be something unexpected happen which seems to happen a lot when I don’t want it to eg dm being unwell or needing more care , norovirus ripping through the house again , an unexpected huge bill for something like the car all those kind of things seem to hit me when I’m down)

im just hoping and praying those 8 days stay ‘empty’

Or that days become 34 hours long not 24 so I can fit in everything I need to.

Really I just want a day in bed with a huge tub of roses endless tea and Christmas films 😭

Be ruthless. I bet there's some stuff you can cancel and the world won't stop spinning.

Or if you can't back out now, can you look at like you just have to grit your teeth for the next xxx weeks but make sure you start saying "NO" to stuff from now on?!

I bet there's loads you do that could cut back

I read somewhere „life is constant juggling of glass and rubber balls. Life throws both of them at you. You can drop the rubber,keep juggling the glass ones”.

Difficult to say but sometimes it’s the pressure that we put on ourselves makes the life hard and unmanagable.

What can you drop/delegate?

Agree with previous post, you need to cancel some things you’ve got booked in. You sound at the end of your tether and that’s not good for you or your family.
Dh has just cancelled 4 things where he would be away for the night (work related) between now and Xmas, he feels such relief now he knows he’s got some space between now and Xmas.