TW - baby death on tv programme.
Not sure why I'm posting this other than I feel I need to 'talk' to someone as I'm crying and feeling pretty shitty.
I've just watched series 2 episode 3 of Time where one of the inmates tells all the others about the circumstances that led to her killing her tiny baby when it appears she had PND.
It has really brought back to me how shit I felt when my DS was born 10 years ago, how hard it was and how utterly fucking alone I felt. I don't know why it has triggered me so much - the situations are not the same at all, I never ever contemplated hurting my DS. But for some reason that episode has left me a mess and has brought up feelings of guilt at how shit I was in those early days and feeling abandoned.
My DS is 10 and we have a fantastic relationship but this has really floored me this evening, even though it was 10 years ago