I got massively drunk at work drinks, partly due to nerves but a lot due to not eating enough. I only see my colleagues twice a year and I think they're great but I do get socially nervous.
I've had a really shit year, a shit couple of years tbh. My mum died very recently but before that I'd had a series of fairly traumatic bereavements (murder, suicide, alcoholism). I haven't even begin to process my mum's death - it was extremely sudden.
I ended up grief dumping on my colleagues while drunk and I'm absolutely mortified. I was so pissed too I think I was even conflating them. I also shared something about a family member's criminal history (they've been in touch a lot recently and causing me a great deal of stress).
I apologised for talking total bollocks the next day and won't see them in person for months. But how do I show my face on Teams on Monday??
I'm looking into counselling too as I clearly need to talk about it. I haven't actually been drunk since the night before my mum died and I had gotten a bit superstitious about it so this was the first time I've really drank socially since.