I hate my job but I don't know what to do

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I work full time in a demanding sector, let's say social care. Three years ago I was a SAHM through no choice of my own, and have worked really hard to get to a place where I have a 'good' job and am paid a decent wage, around £19 p/h. I hate my current job though. I've been told there is no future for me there also, as there is no middle management anymore. My workload is immense and very target and numbers driven by my manager. For example I deal with a HUGE number of very complex issues. My job involves me working with people, sorry to be vague, who are mainly rude, entitled and disrespectful. Some are really appreciative though and in real need of the help we provide. My manager is distant for the most but has made some comments towards me previously which although I won't go into, have made me feel like a problem employee. They are not a great people manager. There are constant barriers in the way and communication is awful, others in the company are always passing on responsibilities and our dept bear the brunt of that. I asked for some time yesterday to be told they were busy and found out also that I had been put into a situation that could be potentially volatile and put me at risk. This was communicated to me by someone from a different dept after I had been to this place. It had made me bitter, grumpy, resentful and really really unhappy. I'm a single parent and my children have trauma from their fathers DV and ALN, one being autistic. I have looked into finding a new job but I don't think I can afford to work for any less, we are struggling as it is and we are topped up. I just don't know what to do, every day I want to hand my notice in and I'm at breaking point all the time, trying to hold it together, running from work to school runs, school and medical appointments, and back again. I will keep on, I have to, we have one wage coming in and I have a mortgage which will be steep when our fixed rate comes to an end soon. I've discussed workload and it never ever gets addressed. Does anyone have any advice with how to deal with this or what I do? I'm totally at a dead end.

Oh OP, I really feel for you, you're stuck between a rock and a hard place. Is there any way you can take some annual leave just for you? Even a day or two? It's a cliche, but you can't pour from an empty jug and you sound really ground down.

I could sit here and talk about demanding time from your manager, caring a little less and saying no a little more, but it's all going to sound like unhelpful bullshit whilst you're feeling like this. You need some space.

Thanks for replying, I'd love to but literally have none left. I need to keep it for my children as no one else can have them I did take a few weeks sick last month as I just snapped. I feel like I've tarnished myself within the company as I previously put a complaint in about my manager which got brushed over by HR.

Can you get your job but at a different employer? Sounds like it's not the job itself but the people you work with.
I moved sideways to a different employer and I felt like I had a lot of ideas and experience to offer even though it was the same grade.

@ThreeFeetTall makes a good suggestion about a sideways move somewhere. What's that other cliché - before you decide you are depressed check first that it's not just that you're surrounded by arseholes. It sounds very much that you could be knee deep in them at your current job.

I'm sorry to hear you have been off sick too, and completely understand about having used up leave/needing it for kids at this time of year.