I would probably describe myself as someone who functions with high anxiety. Generally I can manage it with my anti-depressants but every now and then I have these moments that come out of the blue where I seem to go into panic mode.
I just had one now on a teams call with my boss - my voice shakes, I feel like I am about to burst out laughing / start crying, I can’t concentrate and I try and ask the other person a question so I don’t have to speak. My body goes into fight or flight mode.
It goes away but then I get so worried about being like that at any given moment - with friends just talking, in future meetings etc - that I start to catastrophize.
Is anyone else like me and if so how do you deal with it? I don’t want to access therapy / CBT right now so I need to learn to cope better on my own.