Anyone else just feel really down at the moment?

[winelover82]

I have been on anti depressants for 3 years now. It’s always around this time of the year that I feel depressed / anxious / overwhelmed with life.

I don’t think I have SAD, but maybe the dark nights don’t help.

Anyone else feel the same? I’ve considered increasing my medication dosage but I felt so awful when I first started taking them I don’t know if I can put myself through that again.

Me. Actually didn’t make it into work today as I felt so down which is a first for me. Then just lay in bed all day 😞

Totally, I'm sitting on the verge of crying...think the hate for a relatively new job is the root cause and I'm dreading going back on Wednesday.

I get really depressed this time of year - become really distracted and forgetful, lose all interest in life. I don't want to up my antidepressant dosage again, so trying meditation. NHS registered me on an online course. It's difficult to talk to anybody about because people want to know why you're depressed, and I have a wonderful life - there's no reason.

It’s probably an element of the dark nights for sure. Even if you don’t realise it. Are you taking a vitamin D?

Yeah I am. I usually enjoy this time of year, getting cosy and looking forward to Xmas but I just feel fed up and can't be bothered to do anything. Feeling exhausted for some reason too.

I think a lot of it this year is weather. Yes it's always dark this time of year but the days are normally bright and crisp, we're as this year it's mild but wet and grey

Me too OP just really fed up going to work in the dark and getting home in the dark really depressing and sick of peopling having dinner then going to bed 🥹

Just on increasing the antidepressant dosage: I recently agreed with GP to increase mine and didn’t get any side effects at all from the extra, and it’s made a big difference. So it’s not a given that you’ll get side effects from an increase.

I've just ordered a SAD lamp for the first time. No matter how early I go to bed I'm struggling on a morning. Hoping that it will help.

I am absolutely rock bottom.

I'm sick of hearing about how I need to be strong and overcome my problems, blah blah blah.

What's the point? I don't my life to be a series of horrendous problems. I don't want to strong.

Absolutely. I tried so hard this morning just to get on with things. But just couldn’t. Unless you’ve been there you don’t know

Yes. I just couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed on Saturday apart from when I showered and ate. Wish I crawl under a rock and never wake up.

Get yourself a weighted blanket. Mine gives me a lot of comfort. I curl up into a ball under by heavy blankets and it’s the most lovely feeling.

I don't want to strong.

I so relate to this. I am strong but it makes me sad that I’ve had to be. The happiest people I know are not ‘strong’.

On the plus side this is the first year I’ve accepted my cognitive ability and physical energy decline massively this time of year. I cannot cook, read books, think of nice outfits to wear, go to the gym etc, so I’m eating the simplest food to prepare and listening to audiobooks in bed. If I make it out for the odd walk that’s all I can do.

Go on Youtube and search 'yoga nidra' - can help clear your mind, at least for a short while.

I'm having the worst time I've ever had in my life. There's no way out. I'm completely lost but I need to keep upbeat for everyone else. I'm tempted to go back on medication not I know it won't fix my problems.

I could have written this almost word for word

Me too. Spent hours in bed over the weekend when I had so much to do. Feel headachey, anxious, low mood and energy and just don't know why. Hope it passes soon. Will try yoga nidra, thanks for recommending.

Yep I'm WFH today and I've got up feeling shite and no energy again, just sat staring at my laptop. It's shit. Day after day

Gawd yes. I'm in constant fight or flight too.

I have been googling dorsal vagus nerve stuff
I seem to be stuck in freeze mode
Does yoga nidra deal with that feeling?

Am posting this in bed, having scrolled for about an hour
🙈
Head aches
Can't be arsed
Behind on lots of stuff

Yes.
And completely get where you’re coming from @ReadySalty
Sick of it all.

Absolutely no help really but to everyone and I hope that brighter days and moods come soon.

Me! I don't feel bad so much as don't feel anything. My disassociation is back big style and everything feels like a dream. It's 5 weeks until Christmas and I just can't be fucked. I'm usually making preparations and looking forward to things, but this year I'm just numb. And I have no actual problems in my life that would explain why I feel this way. Increasing my meds isn't an option as I'm already at maximum dose.

Solidarity with everyone else out there.

Me. I'm also pregnant so get a condescending smile and "aw pregnancy hormones" if I even get the strength to tell someone how I feel

I don't know whether I'm having a existential crisis borne out of a series of horrific events and problems. But I look at the world and I don't see much good. I see glimmers of course, but people and life are mostly bad.

It might help with the headaches.