What is this?

[ColdinNovember]

I feel like I’m going through the motions with life at the moment.

I crave a feeling of peace and contentment. I have this feeling of unease or tension and an almost ache in my chest.

my home is messy and disorganised the weekends my dc go to their dad I plan to ‘sort it all out’ but barely manage to tidy.

I feel totally lacking in motivation or finding enjoyment in anything. I’m tired but not sleeping. Less engaged at work.

I just scroll my phone and watch shit tv while stuffing my face.

Emotional exhaustion.

Anxiety and/or Depression? I'd speak to your GP and ask them to assess, or you can do the assessments online; google NHS mood self-assessment and see how your answers to the questions translate as to guidance whether you want to speak further with your GP and see what help is available.

Peri menopause?

You've described my symptoms.

I’m only in my early 30s so not sure it’s peri.

maybe depression, just a few weeks ago I was feeling so much better and making lots of plans, being proactive and productive with my house.

it doesn’t help that I have basically no skills whatsoever and everything that is apparently ‘really simple’ and I can ‘definitely do myself’ the results end up looking 100% worse than when I started.