I've never suffered with low mood in my life so unsure if this is it or I'm just stressed/exhausted. The littlest thing lately have me just feeling lost.
I've a one year old who we desperately wanted after a successful round of IVF. He's a perfect sleeper and eater and generally chilled out. More recently we have more early starts and night wakening but he self soothes, I'm just woken by it. I do all night wakening if he needs us as well as get up with him every morning as my OH either goes to work before I start or I'm off. My OH might do 1 weekend day but I'm usually wakened by the chaos anyway.
My OH is all round good, he works long hours as self employed and takes our large wild dog with him. He comes home and goes straight back out to walk him and then either makes tea or does bed/bath with our LO.
But he doesn't see anything else. The tidying, washing, cleaning, planning of nursery outfits or meal prep. I work 30 hours so juggling both plus the broken sleep has me on edge alot. I'm short fused and grumpy and when my partner comments I haven't done something (this morning was arrange his birthday meal somewhere better than I have...along with another meal with his family the next day) it literally sends me into a spiral. Either anger that I resent him for his ability to get up and showered without a second thought, or his deafness through the night. Or I'm a blubbering mess than feels either really under appreciated or just incapable.
Works stressful as I manage a large company but I can generally switch off from that. I have a great family but they don't live in the UK.
So I duno if I'm a normal struggling new mum getting used to it all and exhausted... or I am suffering from low mood/depression/late PND.
Has anyone had similar?