I have had 3 very stagnant years where life has felt out of place and not right. In recent weeks I took some control back. I've started the ball rolling for my ex to buy me out. I'm looking for private renting for me and the kids. It's awful out there. There's absolutely nothing available and when a rare one appears you can't even get a viewing.
I started working "self employed" but all my work is sorted through an old school friend. She has a business and provides the work and stuff for us. I loved it until the last 3 weeks when she's been putting me on doubles with her. I get no complaints from my regulars. She's constantly time pressuring me and nit picking when we work together. Today I felt her and the other woman had easier areas and I was given the worst part (this isn't always the case) I went into the job and worked hard not to miss anything. When we had an hour left she started telling Me I should be further ahead. This then overwhelmed me and I did get it done on time but felt uncomfortable and useless. Tonight my friend who was working with us today suggested I perhaps should not do the higher paid jobs and stick to regulars. She's been with the company 6 weeks and earlier in the year commented she couldn't possibly do this job as she couldn't be self employed due to her responsibilities.
She's constantly digging at my life and anything in it.
Tonight I've applied for 2 new jobs. I've applied for houses. I've thought about my life and the unhappiness I currently feel. Like nothing is going right.
Has anyone else been here?