Why can't I be happy? Feel so ungrateful

[MisogMog]

I am so lucky, I love my children, they're healthy. I have so much gratitude for what I have. But I am bad tempered, prone to weeping and shouting, I just feel so...bored on one hand, horribly anxious on the other. State of the world gets me down and gets in my head. What a mess.

Same

Totally agree with you OP. I could have written this myself.

Mental health. Everything can be 'good' but if your brain isn't wired right you can't enjoy it.

I feel worried that I'm so ungrateful in my miserableness that something bad will happen as punishment or something! And I'm desperate to feel differently but I just can't. I think I'll have a glass of wine

@MrsMiagi @Moveoverdarlin feels good to hear you feel the same, makes me feel less ashamed of myself

Also, I'm a rubbish mum. It's like I cant enjoy the kids anymore. My fuse is short, I'll just burst into tears. I let my husband take the heat while I sit downstairs. It's awful