Friend's death - surprised by how bad I feel

[Celia24]

I know the subject title might sound stupid - we were close friends about 8 years ago and more distant friends since she moved abroad since then

She was 44 and died from breast cancer which came back three times. Because she moved to another continent I couldn't offer as much support as I wanted and so most of that support was online. Which she seemed to appreciate but probably didn't offer much.

She died two weeks ago & I went on a booked holiday straight after and didn't think about it too much. We had no friends in common but one friend has happily listened to me talk about her.

I'm surprised by how bad I feel. The minute I stop being busy I feel bad and have just felt very upset. I'm not sure why I'm posting really, just feel a bit alone with it.

Im so sorry for your loss. Terrible that she was so young, so sad. Im glad you are talking about her... I often think about one of my best schoolfriends who I found out died in Thailand many years later , although we wern't in regular contact it was still such a shock. I still think about her 30 years on .

Could you reach out to any of her family or friends to share some memories and offer condolence ? They may be really pleased to hear from you and to know that you care and are missing your friend.

Take it day by day, its ok to feel sad and give yourself some slack.