Pretty much that. I feel constantly in a bad mood. Irritable, cross, grumpy. I've really started to look around and feel like 'is this it?' And feeling like what is the point, because nothing really feels massively enjoyable. Irritable if they do, it's small flashes in an otherwise tedious and mundane existence.
Single Mum. Generally content on my own. I don't think I'm lonely, but single life certainly hasn't been the fix all I thought it would be. Left an abusive relationship, and for a while felt thing were really great, however despite not feeling the catastrophic lows, pain and loneliness of my marriage, I also don't feel fantastic at all.
I've identified I provably have cptsd from a challenging childhood, having grown up with an alcoholic mum and actually and emotionally unavailable Dad. I want to improve myself and my outlook, but whatever I'm trying certainly is not working.
How to I get myself out of this downwards slope and generally start to feel more myself again. Whatever that looks like. I hope it's not this.