To just want to hibernate for a month - tired of it all

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I'm tired of being the one who does it all at home. Tired of mentally planning/worrying how we will afford everything/sorting/organising/suggesting it ALL.

Tired of trying to fit in time to see friends/family/doing things with DC & DH/working/my own hobby & chill time/life admin/sorting the house.

Constantly on a diet and the mental struggles with food/wanting to eat treats but can't (I'm all or nothing)/feeling bad if I eat crap/feeling like the goal is never ending. As I type, I am dreaming of getting a mcds breakfast. But the fat and calories and the waste of money to buy it, the waste of my time driving to get this (a 20 minute round trip, currently WFH)

Constant struggles with my hair. It has grown out as I have had to find a new hair dresser. I cannot do anything with it as it's now too long/lank. My anxiety over cutting it to get back to what it used to be shaped like, prevent me from getting it sorted. My old hairdresser totally understood my hair but illness meant she stopped being a hairdresser.

I have an SEN child who needs food cooked on demand. I can be cooking a meal at midnight for DC. Currently WFH, I have a meeting starting now and I now need to cook a meal for DC while attending the meeting (fortunately I do not need to go on camera). During the day while WFH, I'm dropping off/picking up x2 DC from school, cooking on demand for the other DC at home, washing up to be able to have clean pans etc for the next lot of cooking.

My company no longer have an office following covid, so I am WAH constantly.

Oh OP that sounds tough. I think this post just got missed, I hope you are not feeling anxious that no one replied.

I have kids with mild enough SEN, no cooking on demand but other stuff and it is very wearying. I often feel like running away. Where to I don't know. WFH sounds like it's the last thing you need right now. No mental break at all.

It sounds like you have anxiety and may need some support, maybe from GP? The WFH, the SEN child, the mental load of running the house, that's a lot and understandably stressful. But being honest the anxiety about the hair and the calories does seem excessive, that's why I'm suggesting you might need some help as you sound overwhelmed.

I've been trying to pass more chores and responsibilities onto the kids. I can't say it's going brilliantly but things have improved a bit. They have more set says for things. I've also planned housework for set days so I'm not constantly thinking about what needs to be done as I was getting very stressed out about it all a few months back. It feels like a paradox, on one hand I am the centre of it all, everything will fall apart without me but at the same time I am invisible and unimportant. Do you feel like that?

It’s bloody tough .. are you on your own ? Is there anyone who can give you a break for a while