Looking for advice from anyone who is autistic and can relate.
After feeling ‘otherness’ for my whole life, I’m very recently coming to the realisation that I am actually autistic.
Initially, I felt relief that I wasn’t just weird and everything was beginning to make so much sense. I’ve been mentally going over life events with an autistic lens applied and making sense of everything.
However, I’m now feeling total dysphoria. I feel inadequate and so exposed (I mean on a personal level in interactions with other people - I haven’t told anyone, aside from my husband). I’d previously interact with people in my own quirky way, totally oblivious with why I was the way I was and why I interacted with people in the way I would and hoped I could make some connection and find common ground with others… How do I even go about this now, knowing that I am actually different and most people probably do think I’m weird.
Not really sure where to go from here. I feel exhausted, frazzled and turbulent.
Please could people who can relate offer advice? Have you found anything helpful in terms of support?