Feel so low

[Sunday12]

Name changed because I’m ashamed of myself

I feel so overwhelmed by life

im very sad and can’t get motivated at all. I was supposed to go out today. Have tickets to a great event but couldn’t move from bed

i’ll do food for the children and look after pets but apart from that im barely able to do anything

everything is too much for me. I used to take codeine and since stopping im far less able to cope with life. I feel I have ADHD but not diagnosed. My mind is racing but can’t get anything done

ive cleaned a bit of the bathroom and done some laundry but apart from that ive sat in the same spot on my bed. The day is nearly over again.

in my mind id love to go for a walk. Can’t do it though

absolutely overwhelmed with the amount of housework. Cost of living Uncertainty with housing. Might have to find new place next year.

everyone has high expectations of me and I’m relied upon by lots of people but I cannot do what needs to be done in the house. And elsewhere.

I want to be the mum who is jolly and doing pumpkin carving. I’ve been that mum before. Right now I am exhausted completely.

I don’t drink or smoke. I do comfort eat. I don’t have a tv. House is cold. No hot water don’t know why.

repairs in the house can all be reported. But I feel panicked even thinking about it. We have no hot water in kitchen since we moved in 2 years ago. I’ve not mentioned it to landlord because I’m too afraid to bother him. He’s a very nice man though. It all piles up on me. I feel useless and ashamed. I would never let anyone in real life know I feel like this

I used to be able to listen to music and feel a bit better. Now I can’t. Everything makes me upset and worried

can anyone give me some words?

Don’t feel bad. You sound overwhelmed, undersupported and run down.

Regret is a wasted emotion- it solves nothing. Ditto worry. Ditto self blame. They also poison you. The first step is to say nice words to yourself instead of nasty ones. Next time you hear your mind criticising you, make a list of the nice things in your life.

I would also look into vitamin deficiency

The issue sounds like other peoples expectations. Noone can do everything all the time.

Thanks. Yes definitely unsupported. Single parent. No help with anything and hurt by children’s behaviour. I feel I’ve lost myself. No life of my own left and time passing so fast

So sorry to hear how low you are feeling, I really think you need a bit of support, are you able to open up to friends or family and ask for some support? I would also suggest a chat with your GP for mental health support
you mentioned money worries and housing issues. Give your local Citizens Advice a call these are the types of issues that they can help with and you may be entitled to grants or benefits you haven't claimed. They can also advise on housing disrepair issues and may be able to advocate with your landlord for you.

wish I could send you a hug and a cup of hot lovely tea and a Kit Kat. That would warm you up some and we could chat over the cuppa. Xx you sound so weary tired. I’ve been where you are.

Thank you. Kindness means a lot to me. I look after others but no one looks after me. Not at all. Not the slightest thing. That’s how I feel now anyway. I’m still sitting on my bed. Done it all day mostly. Fed the children leftovers but they are ok. They have each other.

And they have you. YOU’RE very important, whether you feel it

Thank you

See a gp.