I've made a plan for getting my life on track, after COL has made things tighter and becoming a single mum put my goals to a halt a few years ago. I've done the odd job since my daughter was one, but now I want to refocus on doing something I love.
Daughter started school in Sep and I want to use this time to help myself feel shiny and new!
We are in the middle of a two week half term, and it's been rough after the feeling of freedom, but I want to change my life for the better so that the next lot of holidays, I have more money to do more things we both enjoy, with her- cinema, visiting family (trains are so expensive now!)
So this is my plan- I have a LOT of things I don't wear, use, need etc in bags in the house so my goal is to get them all on eBay and use the cash to start some kind of small business for myself.
I want to exercise every day, and I've started trying to cook more healthy vegetarian food again, with the odd indulgent day out.
I'm trying to do something creative for myself each day, however small it is, and maybe start sharing it on Instagram so I can build a collection of creativity which I love.
Couple of things holding me back- needing a new phone, as mine is so slow, and not being able to afford one. Also needing to move all my photos onto storage from another old phone I've got which I could use for taking photos. Too many ideas for a business and not being able to choose just one and really focus- fear that I might choose the wrong one. Don't want to list them here just yet, as they're quite personal to me.
The really big thing holding me back is my scatty thinking, and also I'm an overspender. When I feel down about not being on track with my life goals or feeling lonely about my situation, I spend money which I could use on life improvements, on take away!! I don't think I'm completely ADHD, but I do feel I have a few slight ADHD traits, if that makes sense. Lots of procrastination and not being able to get on with things and seeking dopamine or adrenaline hits.
I'm seeing a free support worker next week for ten weeks and I'm doing some group therapy.
One of the reasons I'm also trying to lose weight (the pandemic pounds tbh), is because then I can have more choice of clothes I like in the charity shops. The stuff I see which I love is always too small for me. I find the stuff I'm drawn to suits my old size. Plus I was used to that size and knew how to style it better and feel more me when I'm a ten. I don't think there's anything wrong with curves, I just don't have the face or right shape to pull it off like other beautiful curvy women do! Call me vain, but that's just part of my personality and clothes were always a huge part of me- pre motherhood.