Hand hold please

[dunkinhobnobs]

I don't post very often but I am on the verge of a massive panic attack and have no one to talk me down.
I am emetaphobic and my DD8 has just been very very sick.
I am so lucky that her Dad is upstairs with her and we've been together long enough for him to completely understand my phobia and he deals with everything.
I feel like I should be dealing with this better as it isn't me dealing with her, but I can't calm myself down and any movement upstairs is causing me to spiral out of control.
All I can think about is who will be next and how on edge I will be for the next week while I wait and see.
I've had CBT twice over the years and this phobia still completely rules my life.
I really wish I could overcome this fear and be the mummy my dc deserve.

So sorry you are going through this, you sound such a lovely, caring mum.
Just like any phobia, you haven't chosen it!! You daughter is with her dad, don't panic, she's fine I'm sure. And when she's settled you'll be there with hugs for her xx

Do this

I have emet too OP, so I understand. Use your strategies right now, if you have any. If not, do some guided breathing and meditation on YouTube. Your DD will be ok. It's not life threatening. Deep breaths.

It's all being taken care of. Your daughter is fine. Deep breaths. Worrying about the coming week won't change the outcome.

Oh OP, I also struggle with this and I know exactly how you're feeling. First things first, deep breaths. Try to think about five things you can see, four things you can touch, three things you can hear, two things you can smell, and one thing you a taste. That might help ground you a bit. There's a super helpful meditation app called Balance that has a free year's subscription going at the moment - I've just started but it's truly wonderful, and it has all sorts of meditation stuff, including sessions for crises like this. Might be worth a try to help calm you if you're getting overwhelmed by the noise upstairs?

Whenever stomach bugs darken our home, I try to remember that a) just because one person has it doesn't mean everyone will get it, b) worrying won't change the outcome and c) it isn't forever, this will all be over and done with in a couple of days at most.

Sending you a huge hug and hoping you and your DD are feeling better by morning