For the better?
I have most probably spent most of my adult life cutting my nose off to spite my face by not trying antidepressants for long enough but I am petrified of side effects.
The truth is that despite struggling with anxiety, ocd, depression and a very poor mental health for most of my life, I am terrified of antidepressants.
I have terrible digestive issues which has been made worse by a bacterial overgrowth but also exacerbated by the vicious cycle of anxiety over the digestive symptoms and the actual gut symptoms. It really is a very vicious cycle.
My greatest fear would be that the antidepressants will give me diarrhoea (I have the fear of diarrhoea equivalent to Emetophobia and it is ruining my life).
Over the years I have been offered Sertraline, Citalopram, Duloxetine and just recently Escitalopram but I never take them as they all list diarrhoea as a very common side effect, this absolutely freaks me out. I appreciate this seems irrational to many but as someone who has suffered daily gut issues for 25 years it’s a real and genuine fear for me. I can just about conduct my life with my horrible symptoms, if they became any worse it would push me over the edge.
I have exhausted all non-pharmaceutical methods to reduce my anxiety and digestive symptoms (counselling, CBT, hynoptherapy, reflexology, mindfulness, yoga and literally everything recommended for IBS).
I have reached a bit of a crisis point, I need something to help. I have a lot of stress right now as I help care for my DM, she suffers from Alzheimer’s and that alone is causing me so much anguish, this disease could go on for years and it is slowly chipping away at my mental and physical health.
So can I ask if antidepressants helped you (whatever your issue was)?
Did you experience any awful side effects such as diarrhoea or nausea/vomiting (as I’ve said, these are my absolute fears).