I’ve never been overly confident especially in my teen years. As I git into my later 20’s and the girls I went out clubbing with I gain more confident in myself.but still shy ? Not confident in other areas
like I didn’t like staying at friends house with there brother & sisters . When I hit marriage with the church wedding, I hated the thought of being centre of attention and everything that went with it.
i followed suit of all my work colleagues because I did want to be different
As I’ve got older niw, I’m more confident in speaking up for myself but when it comes to socialising it’s a big NO, that may have to do with the anxiety/depression/panic I’ve developed over years & years
maybe it’s too late for me to now to put right ?
if I’m not confident surely I can’t make myself
feel comfortable around people because I’m a bit of a recluse? I really don’t know but I know I beat myself up sometimes when I want to be a person I’m not
what about you ?