I’ve got a history of mental health stuff going on; panic disorder and CPTSD with OCD. On quite a few meds (mirtazapine, sertraline and diazepam).
Since starting the sertraline I’ve been having hellish weird dreams. Started off with some grounding in reality and full of flashbacks - so more like nightmares. Ended up with me disclosing a lot of abuse to my CPN this week which has been difficult in and of itself.
Last night’s dream was even weirder however - I’ve been awake 2-3 hours and yet I could tell you in detail exactly what happened, it’s like it really did (except obviously it didn’t). Daft thing was I preferred what I was dreaming about to reality, woke up about 6am and said to myself I’d rather go back to that dream - did, but I ‘knew’ I was dreaming by that point and felt like I could control what I was dreaming about. All a bit odd , I don’t think has ever happened before except for when I’ve had a fever or something (I don’t), and has left me feeling weird/spaced out this morning.
I’ve never had that before and I’m scared it’s some sort of beginning of psychosis or something. I’ve had episodes of derealisation and depersonalisation before but nothing like this. It’s like it took me a bit longer than normal this morning to work out where I am, and what I need to be doing today - and that what I dreamt about hasn’t really happened.
Is it normal to have this sort of stuff with sertraline? CPN has said repeatedly she’s unsure about the combo I’m on and was going to check with my consultant this week.