Barely surviving

[Whatintheworldgirl]

I hate life so much right now. TW mental health discussion. Restrictive eating discussion.

Ever since the age of 4 I've had a bad relationship with food. Not to do with looks but to do with my fear of sickness. I tend to restrict food and leave massive gaps between eating because it offers me comfort knowing my tummy is empty. Anyway, I'm on anti anxiety meds for this. Still early stages but I'm beginning to really want to give up. This anxiety has caused me so many issues over the last two years. I feel like I'm not living anymore. Im constantly battling being nauseous all day every day. I can't sleep because I feel so sick. I can't work, I can't leave the house. Why won't this nausea go away!!! 2 years of it is just destroying me. It's like I'm living in my own personal nightmare.

I feel like I've lost myself. I'm constantly scared. I'm constantly terrified. It's so exhausting 😭

Drs have no idea. Some say it's fibromyalgia. Some say it's all in my head, some say I may have gastroperisis. I'm just at s loss. I want to be normal or atleast able to have even a single full day without feeling so sick

Any doctor that said fibromyalgia for nausea is an idiot unless you've missed that you're also in constant (horrible, not stomach related) pain?

Have they tried treating the other possible causes mentioned?

Reflux - proton pump inhibitors
Gastroperisis - regular daily movicol for at least several months
Both of these medications are very safe to trial unless there's another medical condition they'll effect or medication interactions.

Some anxiety medications actually have nausea as a possible side effect. Some can also effect appetite, some increasing and some decreasing it.

There are older style antihistamine medications that work to reduce nausea, have they trialed any of those? Promethazine and Doxylamine Succinate are two regularly used for nausea treatment. Doxylamine Succinate is also used with B6 in some countries as a nausea treatment. You could look intlo natural treatment, B6, peppermint and Ginger are the ones I can think of off the top of my head, but I know there's more.

There's also things like prochlorperazine maleate though I think a GP is unlikely to prescribe that for regular long term treatment it could help on days that are particularly bad. I've had a lot of nausea and bowel issue. The nausea can also be your bowel backing up as well as refulx. I have GERD(Gastroesophageal reflux disease) and IBS along with other issues. Weirdly chewing mint gum the sugar free kind helps with the reflux and the feeling I'm going to vomit. I know other's with the same issues that find chewing mint gum useful too.