Is anyone awake? Need a handhold.

[Scaredmuch]

I am scared about my mental health. I have a history of scary health issues and currently waiting tests for some horrible things like brain tumours/serious diseases. I will get results in 2 weeks but don't know how I can get through until the n. My beloved DD has also just left for uni and I miss her so much I am crying all the time. I am scaring myself with how bad I'm feeling. I can't eat. I can't sleep and I can't stop crying.

Thank you all for your kindness. It helps to know I'm not totally alone.

I will see the GP about medication but need to get these tests/diagnosis out of the way first. Wish I could fast forward 2 weeks.

Yeah cbt seems like a pile of shite love, like you can think yourself out of anything, absolutely not true. Mundane is good. One foot in front of the other.

I’m here! I’m shattered but can’t sleep, my daughter dropped her phone and her bedroom is above us….tips on how you don’t smother your children as teens may get you through an hour or two? :-)

I have cancer and I understand the fear you're feeling. I've taken beta blockers since my troubles began. They don't stop the thoughts but take the edge off my anxiety. My GP was happy to prescribe them.

I've found Acceptance and Commitment Therapy more useful than CBT. It you want to try something different at some stage my therapist recommended the book, " The Happiness Trap". Once the tests are out of the way I think it really could help to see a psychiatrist. There are a lot of alternative treatments now like ketamine and CBD oil and they're a lot more familiar with medications than GPs and there may be something you could safely use that the GP doesnt have the expertise to prescribe. I know ketamine treatment is available in the UK, not sure about the legality of CBD oil there.

I know it's trite, but I do find it helps to remind myself that I've been through this before and survived. Also dark humour, there's some great meme groups on FB for people who are ill physically or mentally. If I can laugh at how horrific things are I'd rather do that. On the crying though sometimes you need to, it can be cathartic. You'll pick yourself up for DD in the morning. If you're too tired and can afford it I'd consider staying somewhere near her university overnight so you can have a rest before driving back. Take care you deserve that.

Sending big hugs OP. It's a scary place and I'm sorry you're going through this.

Headphones and some music or one of those sleeping sounds like rain or waves for tonight perhaps.

Ask your dr if there's an alternative AD that you can take or a beta blocker.

Sending love and strength

Hopefully all tests come back normal sending you lots of prayers 🙏 and lots of love ❤️
There's a good saying worrying won't change the past or future but will ruin your present.
Distraction is the key, whilst your daughter is away and you wait for your results maybe take up some new/hobby....go for some good hikes in the country sides, Nature really is healing 🙏
Do you have cats? I have 2 Bengals there adorable, I love watching funny cat videos 😂

OP

Deep breath.

OK you have to wait for test results. So at the moment you either have what you are being tested for or you don't.

Worrying about it does not help, it will not make your health any better and might make it worse.

Take 10 mins a day to worry, then put it out of your mind until the next day.

Sorry you are feeling upset OP, I second CBT or any other kind of coping mechanism that works for you to get through the next couple of weeks

I always find it useful to write down my worries, I learned this in CBT therapy, you do real worries down one side and hypothetical worries down another column. It helps to get worries out of your head and into perspective