How to stop giving a shit

[Kranker]

It’s been one if those days. Woke up in a bad mood, have lots to do this week and feel stressed up to my eyeballs.

I work part time in a school. This morning was rubbish, there was a bad atmosphere and a few issues. As I was heading out the door, head of year asked if I can come in at 9am. We need to have an emergency meeting about a pupil (I have an idea of what it’s about, it’s serious so I definitely want to be there). I said I need to sort out childcare but should make it.

Rang around and finally found someone who
would take DC. Messaged head of year to confirm I can come in a 9am for the meeting.

He replied ‘as discussed, the meeting is at 1pm‘.

I must have misheard him. I have no idea how. I replied ‘oops, shouldn’t write and cook at the same time. I‘ll be there‘. Not sure if he’ll believe that or not.

Another manic ring around and have got childcare sorted.

But I can’t help feeling like such an idiot. He must think I am such a moron.

How do you stop letting these little things get to you? I think it feels like a bigger deal than it is because I am so tired and stressed out. I want to be one of those people who doesn’t give things a second thought, but I know I‘ll be lying awake feeling stupid tonight.

@Kranker My Dh is so good at this sort of stuff ( ie not worrying ) - so don't worry - so in a year's time or 10 year's time - will you remember it. If not it probably doesn't matter. If you have come in for an important meeting for a pupil , then that is fabulous even if there was a misunderstanding about the time. I would expect HOY to be grateful - not thinking you are an idiot. & nor should you think you are idiot . You have done a good thing . I hope you have a restful night. & I hope the meeting goes well.

I think when you're already stressed, the least wee thing seems more stressy than normal. It's easy to be overwhelmed. Don't worry that you've made a fool of yourself, the meeting time and childcare are sorted, so that's that ticked off of your to do list.

Thank you for the kind messages, they’ve actually made me well up a bit.

Going to try to chill a bit and tick a few more things off my list.

It‘s actually a lot better and less stressful for me to have the meeting at 1pm instead if 9am so trying to focus on that. It wouldn’t have been possible to have the meeting at 9am because there are lessons. I have no idea why I thought that. I really feel like there is no space in my head for new information!!

i also work in a school and the responsibility and pressure really gets to me sometimes it's hard not to care about the tiniest little thing. x

If this head of year has no influence on the person who's deciding your employment, you're fine.