I hope no one mind's me pouring this out here but I suppose I was hoping others could let me know of times when they felt similar.
I'm ok, I'm just stressed. I was driving home tonight from the shop, thankfully ds is with my mum tonight. Some guy was driving like crazy in the supermarket car park, loads of people were shook up, thought he was going to hit them. Others didn't come out until he'd gone. I had no choice but to sit tight in my car, no point trying to leave the car park because he was driving around it like a maniac.
Anyway, finally he went, I drove home, but then saw a guy zig zagging behind me. He disappeared around a corner but with my attention all over the place I knocked a central bollard slightly, only slight with my wheel. No damage to bollard and I thought no damage to my car, but when I got home I could smell 'something.' Not burning but similar, like hot metal.
I've kept a close eye on the car for the last 45 mins and will keep doing so as I'm not going to sleep for a while.
I expect it's fine, but worst fear was there would be a fire. Tyre looks fine but I need to see if the garage will look at it tomorrow and of course no one will be able to on a friday with short notice.
I'm beating myself up about it but the truth is I'm usually a really good driver and have never done that before.
With our recent move I have paid out for a lot of stuff and there's no money to get car sorted either, even if they could get it in. I'm sure they'd be happy to just take a quick look for me, but it's whether there's time and if there isn't, I don't think it would be right to drive it until Monday, which messes a lot of other stuff up.
The thing is we are all stressed aren't we at the moment and I don't want this to be a whinge. I'm just feeling low in general and could use other's stories of when things all pile up.
At the start of the week a pharmacist was really rude. I'd gone to collect meds that were owing and she said I'd already collected them. I haven't and that's certain. But that's not the problem, the doctor wrote another prescription for me, it's just the way she spoke got to me.
There's a lot of stressful things going on in the family too atm and I just seem to be on heightened alert for 'danger.'
Anyone else felt like this? I'm not depressed, anxious maybe, but that's it. Thanks for reading.