Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by this massive feeling of insecurity even though there's nothing in life to justify feeling like this.
I start to feel ugly, rubbish at job, like a useless parter/ mother and friendless. I question if people like me and my abilities and think of people who rejected me over the years for whatever reason. Why didn't they like/ accept me?
I remember feeling this way a lot as a child. Very worthless and ugly. I have improved it a lot as an adult but sometimes I regress and feel like I'm back there again feeling stupid and small.
I had a baby recently and wonder if post partum is making me feel like this although I really don't think I have Pnd as feel OK mostly. I think I miss external validation/ praise you get at work sometimes as that is usually what makes me feel good about myself.
But now I dread going back to work in case people think I'm incompetent even though I was doing really well before mat leave.
No idea what I want from this post. Has anyone overcome these kinds of insecurities? How do you focus on the good stuff.
On paper I should be the most confident person. I have a lot of good points and no different from anyone else but its just not the way I feel inside.