Once in a while I'm overcome by this massive feeling of insecurity for no apparent reason. It's like the rug has been pulled from under me.
I feel like no one really likes me, that I'm not liked or valued in my job, am a rubbish mum/ partner, unattractive and just generally not a good person. This isn't provoked by anyone or anything in particular. There isn't really anything in my life to justify this feeling.
I dwell on times over the years when I was rejected or a friend ghosted me. I'm thinking about some of those people tonight and I don't know why. I wonder why I wasn't good enough for them to like/ accept me although tbh they weren't that much of a loss.
I'm on mat leave and due back to work soon. I was good at my job before but am terrified I'll have gone down hill and be rubbish. I don't think this is PND as generally feeling OK but maybe having a baby has brought old feelings to surface.
I remember feeling insecure like this often as a child. Like I was very ugly and worthless. I've got better over the years but feel like I'm regressing!
Not really sure what I want from this post. Has anyone overcome insecurity like this? How can I more on what I've got going for me? There is a lot to be thankful for.