Just looked at a pic of myself by the pool and feel gutted. I am 5ft 3 and used to be a very petite build size 10.
I am still a size 10, sometimes 12. I’ve probably put half a stone on. Not sure how much I weigh but probably
9st something, closer to ten stone. My clothes all still fit me but in new clothes I buy a 10 or a 12 as I like them to be looser. I’ve always had a healthy relationship with food. I eat enough fruit and veg, drink enough water and do lots of steps. I don’t do any workouts at the gym but I walk loads!!!. I don’t overindulge. Admittedly I could eat smaller portions, that’s probably my undoing.
I am very reluctant to weigh myself or start calorie counting because lots of my female relatives have experienced bad relationships with self image and food. I almost know I’m susceptible to that pattern of thinking if that makes sense so prefer to keep on as I am.
I don’t think I look overweight, but I do have large thighs and bloat after a heavy meal. It could be my metabolism. I am judging myself on what I looked like 5 years ago and maybe that is unrealistic, and that it’s normal to gain more weight in mid twenties?
Just feel so disheartened. Not sure what the point in this post is. We hope to try for our first baby soon, obviously size will increase over pregnancy that’s to be expected but if I’m like this now I’ll struggle to ever be petite again won’t I?