I am sitting here working from home doing the absolute bare minimum. Literally replying to emails but that's it.
I feel so lazy and useless.
But on the other hand my job is a nightmare. I rarely get time off - had to travel abroad for work on Sunday and got back early Wednesday morning.
Most weekends and evenings I have to work - normally just calls and nothing too taxing but I just feel like I never get a break and because of that I spend my week being crap.
I can't change the nature of the job. I am well paid and no one checks when or how I am doing stuff. It all just has to get done and I figure out how to do that.
I keep trying to be more regimented during the typical work days but the reality is I can't change the work in the evenings and the weekends so I end up thinking what's the point?
I feel like my life is slipping away from me and all I do is work or not work but not relax.
I am possibly changing jobs but it will be a big pay cut. We can afford it but it isn't an appealing option - too long in the tooth to retrain and we rely on my salary mostly so can't take a big step down.
Don't know what I am asking really but does anyone relate to how I feel? Demotivated chugging along know I can do better but what's the point as it never stops