String of bad luck? Or am I damned and have reslly bad karma?

[Hopinghonestly]

Oh my goodnes I am getting so much bad luck for years in a row now, I am getting paranoid.

I feel I can't catch a break..

It started with a string of deaths, my nan, my cousin to suicide, 6 miscarriages..then I was assaulted, lost my job, had a breakdown, ended up homeless.

Then met my partner, had a miraculous pregnancy.. but still...no end. Whole pregnancy was hazardous touch and go if baby would make it, spend two months flat in hospital. Ended up with discrimination over notes from that breakdown couple years ago. So had to be checked out with ss. (Obvs no concerns but still upsetting to feel marred and labelled) it was so bad. The accusations from professionals were so ridiculous..but the notes were not even from doctors it was assumptions from assistants popping in. (Example accused of being an alcoholic...I haven't even had a sip in 4 years..never had a problem 😅) like proper outlandish assumptions, sort of like they have written a complete stereotype of what a homeless person must be.

Then my partner went bankrupt (not really his fault, he could of kept on top of it, but one debt got it wrong and took 4 months to correct the figure but demanded payment on high incorrect figure till they sorted it out else legal action which accrued fees) im hoping this can be disputed and sorted out but its just got out of hand now so its just a mess.

Then got accused of fraud, it is sorted now as it was a mistake..but its just really??? Its relentless..

Then I keep feeling attacked by everyone..like a stranger randomly came up to me claiming she was psychic and could tell my baby didnt love me..normally i would laugh it off..but i don't know if as I am so sensitive at the moment with all this bad JuJu that I notice negativity so much more.

Can a person actually be cursed? Will this end? I understand life is hard, but it all seems such extreme issues cropping up..its not like a little struggle its all a bit extreme.

You’re not cursed but you’ve had an awful run of events- just random. Can you do an audit? Something like Steve Covey’s seven habits? His son did one for teenagers which is more user friendly but I suggest getting hold of both. It’ll give you a chance to take stock and feel more in control.

Ah I feel for you. My family (what's left of us) are very similar, we don't do bad luck on a small scale. We do it to Armageddon level as well. Black humour and little pockets of joy where we find them get us through.
Anyway can I just say your baby is so lucky to have such a strong Mother. ❤️

Thank you, that made me chuckle..definitely does feel armageddon level. Trying to sort medical notes to lessen discrimination but apparently you can't remove them only add. So trying to get a flag to state current status.. past irrelevant type thing. But i dont understand why a trained professional wouldnt look at the notes and think it is ridiculous. I mean they are all dated few years ago (breakdown year) and its crazy.. its psychosis, drugs (never even tried them in my life) depression, bipolar, personality disorder. Like the whole array..doesnt it flag up as untrue as its pretty impossible for one person to have every single mental illness in one month..when i see a new doctor they act really surprised when they meet me, they comment on oh your fine?

Argh. That's so frustrating! Do you have anyone helping you as well? That's a hell of a mental load to manage with a wee one.

Yes, i have perinatal team trying to sort it as i think only a psych can do a flag on the system like that...they are also suspicious that my notes have been illegally accessed so looking through audit trails. Haha honestly its unbelievable.