Stay or go in newish job?!

[Thewallsof]

Please be gentle I'm feeling fragile...

Im really struggling with a work situation and could do with some perspective on it as I'm not sure how to proceed.

I work part time for a non profit and also work freelance. This is common practice in my sector. I've been in my job since late last year and I'm really struggling. It's not my skills and knowledge to do the job. Although obvs I'm not perfect! It's the culture in the org which makes my role really hard and stressful.

Without giving loads of detail it's things like the small staff team constantly missing deadlines for reporting which I have to compile. I've done all the things I can think of to mitigate and get them on board and 10 months in it's still a nightmare. It makes the job hard but also dull as I'm just not able to develop or do anything beyond basics of my job. This is just one example of a constant pattern.

My mental heal is suffering and I'm exhausted. I could manage if I left especially short term. But I feel torn as it was supposed to be a step up and an opportunity to develop plus I like some bit of the work the org does. But not sure if I'm clinging to what I want it to be?

My manager knows yeh issue and says they can support change. But I don't know if I've got the energy. Should I cut my losses and move on without a job to fill the gap or try and ride it out?

One concern is my wellbeing and how much this is impacting me looking for new work.

Ten months, your manager knows, 'will support change' and nothing's changed? who exactly is supposed to make this change, then?

I'd be out. It isn't going to be a step up if the basic issues aren't resolved, and it sounds like no-one's bothered enough to do that.

NO job is worth your mental or physical health.

If you feel this way, go. I have stayed too long in jobs that pissed me off once I'd got to know what they were really like. Don't do it to yourself, you are more important and they aren't that good and it is irritating you. Reduce irritations in life.

Thanks for the replies. What @something2say said about learning what it's really like rings true. Short term / fixed contracts are common in my sector so I'm used to moving jobs frequently. There's definitely an amount of time it takes to get to know a workplace. Unfortunately these things all became evident as I got to know it and see how things really are.

@MrsDanversGlidesAgain you are right it's not a set up if the basics aren't fixed. In terms of who's making these changes I have some support to do them so it will be me and the director / board.

You know the energy needed to do something like this is a lit and don't feel like I have it!