How do I over come this,
I've been off work for 6 weeks sick with a health issue, still not got to the bottom of it but small changes n lifestyle and medication I'm mostly feeling better.
Intensive care environment. One of very few experienced nurses left on the ward.
10-12 nurses SHORT each shift often means the patients who are ICU patients, there for should be having one to one care. Don't get this. My last shift I had 4 ICU patients in a room by myself.
When I say experienced. 5 years in the role. From newly qualified so not that experienced but more so than the new nurses coming out of university atm
I haven't slept at all last night. I feel sick. I've bit all my lovely grown nails. Can't stay off the toilet. On the verge of tears.
Doesn't help I've heard on the grape vine that my team leader has been heard slagging me off (she didn't know the full reason I was off sick) she does now as I purposely cc'd her into an email to my manager.
I leave shift crying more often than not.
I know I need to find a new job, this job is my dream job though and I can't imagine doing anything else . Nor do I want to work with older children (I work with babies) my team is great. We are just so thin on the ground.
I don't know what the solution is. I probably shouldn't be going back. But the longer I leave it the worse it will be!