I hate this about myself.
I've been physically I'll and in hospital for the last 16 months. I'm finally starting to feel like myself again and I've started to realise how different my sex drive is to my partners. Sex is hugely important to me. Always has been (yes I have past trauma and a weird childhood so I understand I may need counselling) but I put air of my value and worth into sex. I want to feel wanted. I hate myself and in all honesty, the only time I feel genuinely close to my partner is during sex. He's not really into it as much as I am and it's a very quick situation. Can I move past this? Does anyone else have experience that they can offer wisdom on this subject rather then criticism. I want to be able to either get this fiery side out of my brain or be able to entice my partner to be a bit more adventurous/aggressive.