In reality, about 130 miles so not that far.
I’m staying at my uncle’s house, and will be splitting time with him and my aunty over the next 9 days (divorced but good friends). Spending half of tomorrow with my aunty.
It’s partly being done as I’ve been hospitalised three times in three months with anxiety/mental health - I’m convinced I’ve got heart problems and need more tests (health anxiety) but keep being told it’s anxiety. I’ve stopped going out except for healthcare appts and exercising and stuff to the point I’m also getting pressure sores on my bum from sitting still for so long.
I’m feeling stupidly tearful tonight and only got here today (after a 5 hour journey).
There’s a lot of walking around happening. I’ve hardly left my flat for three months. Plus I went out for dinner tonight, going out all day tomorrow; again the next day and for most of the next week. I should be chuffed with that and enjoying myself but all I keep thinking is, I’m safer indoors.
Family know I’ve got anxiety - know I’ve been in hospital obv - and are very supportive but I can’t exactly say I’d rather hide in the house for a week.
Plus I normally live alone and so if I’m really anxious I can hide away, call 111/999 without it really affecting anyone. I can’t do that in my uncle’s house and I don’t always feel able to say, I’m panicky. I don’t want to look silly.
That and I’m in England - I’m from Scotland - I have no idea how things work here for MH. My MH team at home found a phone number for local crisis team who I rang earlier and they told me I can call them 24/7 for support.