In a bad place - suggest some self care/TLC

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Really really reeeeally bad place.
Don't want to go into the details but what can I do to lift myself out of this awful pit of super depression (aside from antidepressants which I'm currently on and has been upped and counselling which I'm having).
I'm off work, I have no money, toddler at home 4 days a week, nursery other 3 days. Love toddler but get no me time unless it's nap time or bed time or they're in nursery. No close family. DH works FT but does help massively when he can.
What should I do with myself because all I want to do is sleep in a pitch black room forever.

Can you get out into the fresh air once a day by yourself, even just for 10 mins after dinner time or once your toddler is in bed? Sometimes a bit of fresh air helps me clear my head.
Or a mindfulness activity like colouring in? That's assuming your LO has a colouring in book and pencils/crayons.
Or download the headspace app?

Echoing pp, fresh air helps me massively. Out for a run or a bit of weeding in the garden.

Are you crafty? I enjoy crochet or knitting. If I'm depressed I'm not up for learning a new pattern because if it goes wrong I'll feel like even more of a failure, but something I've done before like granny squares is good. Or Lego.

Can you meet up with a friend when lo is at nursery?

Yes I can go into my garden.
I'm usually outside most days if weather allows as toddler is very active and hates being inside.
Yeah I forgot about the headspace app actually.
I need to think of some activities that aren't sleeping when toddler sleeps.... I'm using sleep as a big escape currently.

I'm litterally only alive because of my toddler. Health professionals are aware.

Are you eating properly?

Would trying some gentle exercise help? Something like yoga or pilates. There's loads of free videos on YouTube, some nice and short, like 10-15 mins.

Probably not eating as well as I could, no. I really suck at looking after myself.
That's a thought I could do a yoga video on YouTube.
If I had a schedule to work to that'd help.
Nap time is 2hrs and I give myself 2hrs after their bedtime.
So nap could be, 30 mins basic/quick tidy/clean, 15 mins cup of tea outside (weather permitting) playing tetris (I read thus is a great game when distressed)...30 min yoga...15 min then doing?....not doomscrolling.....

Don’t be too hard on yourself for using sleep as an escape if you need to. It’s ok to do what you have to to get through the days when you’re feeling like this, especially if you’re very active when your toddler is awake. If you think it would help to have a schedule and add activities then by all means go ahead but don’t fall into the trap of feeling you have to do more stuff to get better etc.