I'm normally so bloody independent and cope fine with DP being away for a few months at a time. And we generally live in a safe area, neighbourhood watch.
But since last weekend when I found out my abusive estranged son is back in the area. I haven't really slept. I am exhausted. Our house looks like it has cctv on. Other houses in the cul de sac have cctv and no one can get in via the back because our garden backs onto several other closed off gardens.
I have a dog. But he's only 1.8kg often barks at is own farts, so every time he barks I'm on edge wondering why!
It's silly. He doesn't know where we live, but it's a small village so not hard to figure out or find our house.
Thankfully I'm off work related to a health issue (svt's) and this isn't really helping.
I've been distracting myself with Netflix, getting out and about to see friends if they are free, my other DC (13 and 16) are at their fathers tonight and tomorrow night. They are aware as he's contacted them to get them to meet with him,
They didn't.
How can I calm the hell down and not be scared in my own house, DP won't/can't be home for another ten days (away at sea!) I haven't told him just how bad it's effecting me. I told him last weekend when it all became apparent. He knows I'm
Feeling on edge.