I have literally everything I wished my heart out for 10 years ago when I was a young single mum struggling with two jobs. I have a senior career I love, a wonderful marriage with someone I'm deeply in love with, a happily blended family, a gorgeous bonny baby, a beautiful home we bought together.
If I'd have known back then that this was to be my life I would have been bowled over.
Is it weird that I very rarely feel totally completely utterly happy? I spend way too much time dwelling on small worries and allowing anxieties to take over my thoughts. And almost feel I am 'undeserving' of all the wonderful things I have. Am also knackered all the time which doesn't help (see: baby).
I am still recovering from an abusive relationship 5 years ago in which one of the things I was repeatedly told was that I was nothing and would never know happiness so I'm sure part of that plays a part, as I'm sure post-partum hormones do too, but is this otherwise a 'normal' emotion to feel?
I feel I need to maybe begin a gratitude practice and to start practicing mindfulness, but has anyone any other tips on how I can start bloody letting myself feel and enjoy all the happiness in my life?