Am I depressed?

[Depressedornot]

Ok quick background so this isn’t boring!

I recently moved for children’s school, the new area is nice but not where I want to be. But where we have to be for school. My children are at preschool / school and I feel very lonely during the day.

I have done some retraining and am working part time, and sort of enjoying it but just feel so lacklustre about everything.

Feels like the best part of my life is over.

I have friends, but they’re busy. I see them but not loads.

I feel quite empty.

Is it depression? Or something up with my life? DH thinks it’s depression and that our life is good. If I take ADs all will be fine. I don’t know why I can’t sort myself out. I miss having preschool kids and a meaning to my life.

I’ve tried hobbies, integrating myself into the local area, exercise, even therapy. But nothing makes me any less blah.

Sounds like loneliness more than depression or situational depression based on loneliness. I feel quite similar most of the time.

I think you’re probably right. I haven’t heard of situational depression.

I miss my children being at home so much - it feels unfair to them that I miss it so much. I watch old videos and I cry about it all the time! (Never ever when they’re there as I’m self aware, at least.)

And then when they are there, I sometimes just feel disengaged and fed up. And I found those days when they were at home hard, too, I remember them. They were long and hard!

What on earth is wrong with me?! I feel like a failure at life. Maybe that’s the loneliness!