TW Spent all day yesterday in A&E deemed ‘high risk’ (MH)

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I’ve had MH problems since my teens, now 32 - diagnosis of CPTSD and OCD (health anxiety). Both are totally out of control just now. I’ve got a care plan, crisis plan, psychiatrist, etc. My only thought 24/7 is whether I or someone I love is going to die that day, I can’t get any escape from it whatsoever.

Even if I have a good day my emotional regulation is so out of whack that I just end up panicking.

Was sent over to A&E yesterday after having self harmed (not seriously) and expressing ‘thoughts’ to 111. Got kept in A&E for a few hours. My support worker came up and gave me a bag of snacks, because I’d been so anxious I wasn’t able tk get any shopping, and a big hug.

Got discharged home as ‘you have a lot of protective factors’ with advice to call my GP and mental health team this morning.

My GP rang at 10, was on phone no more than 3 minutes and said to increase one of my meds. It was only just increased 7 days ago.

My support worker has asked me to come and see her at 1 for a coffee but I’m so anxious I don’t see how I’m going to be able to leave the house. I can’t even bear to get up and washed just now never mind anything else.

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’ve been in crisis before and there’s nothing worse. Could your support worker come to your house if you can’t get out?

Tell your support worker that you went to see them but feel that way, let them help you work out how to stay in contact with them

I think it’s good they have increased the meds clearly the dose increase 7 days ago wasn’t working yet & you need them to work quicker. Sending hugs.

Thank you. Health anxiety is hell just now my heart keeps ‘skipping’ every 20 seconds and I don’t feel able to move. Mental health team said a psychologist is going to ring me to talk things through a bit.

She could come to the house but I’d be embarrassed, because I’ve been so anxious I’ve been unable to keep the house clean

Oh I'm sorry I have had similar problems in the past and I'm grateful I'm stable now
Please don't feel anxious about your house not being clean enough
It's simply a symptom of how unwell you are at the moment and I promise you she has seen all that before
Mine certainly did and never judged only expressed concern
Accept support you need
You deserve to feel better

What PP said. Please don’t be anxious, she will understand and maybe even give you a hand to straighten things up a bit.
Lean on her.

She could come to the house but I’d be embarrassed,

Pride needs to go out the window when you're ill. I hope you accept help soon.

Managed to go out for 45 minutes and sit with support worker, she bought me an ice cream. Psychology doctor rang me and said I would benefit from CBT for a few weeks, which will start in about a fortnight, and then I will get long term psychology therapy once they’ve helped me cope with the anxiety. it’s hard thinking of letting people in to house, I’m so anxious most of the time I can’t even wash the dishes.

You did amazing, genuinely

Sorry posted too soon. This is really hard, and you did so well to go with the support worker. Hopefully things get easier and easier for you

You did so well! That is a huge achievement feeling as you do
It's good you have the input of a psychologist and I truly hope this helps you
Hold onto hope

You did brilliantly. I’m glad you’re getting the therapy and I hope it helps!