Tomorrow I turn 40 and I'm feeling quite low and emotional about the whole thing. My life is not at all where I would have thought it would be and it feels like my life has passed me by.
I have been single a long time, never married, just never seem to meet anyone. For the first time in the longest time I met someone online recently who I really like and felt so excited about what might happen but it's looking increasingly like he's lost interest already and I feel so sad. It's so lonely to have been single so long and not have anyone to share things with. I feel completely unlovable. And it now feels like I have also missed any chance I might have had of having children.
I don't like the way I look - need to lose weight which I'm trying to do but feel like looks wise things will only get worse now I've hit 40.
I only have a small number of friends - most of my friends got married and had children and drifted away. I live alone and haven't been able to afford to buy my own home (I rent). I feel like such a failure.
I quite like my job but it is quite stressful and although the pay is ok, when you are on your own it is still difficult to afford to save for a house or to travel. I feel like I just work and that's it.
I don't know what I expect from this post really - I suppose I just have no idea where I go from here. I feel completely without direction and any really significant life changes feel like they would require alot of money etc. which realistically I just don't have. I feel like I'm going to spend the next 40 years growing old alone and without children and it just makes me feel sad and overwhelmed. Has anyone else felt like this? Does anyone have any suggestions for how to cope with and accept the fact that your life has not turned out the way you hoped?