I’m an older learner and I received my undergraduate degree results on Monday. I got a first class honours in a science subject. It was totally unexpected and I ought to be over the moon but I just feel meh and disappointed.
Getting a first allows me to take up my phd offer with full and generous funding, something I’ve worked so hard towards and really am excited to do. I know am extremely privileged.
Why am I so down on myself? No one can get better than a first, although within that banding I could have done better (I know that is irrelevant) but I feel like I’ve failed and I don’t understand why. I should be hugely grateful and proud of this achievement and I feel like a fraud and like I ought to give up the phd to someone more deserving.
How so I get this out of my head to allow me to enjoy my achievement? It is so alien to me to feel like this.