I need to share this with someone

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I need to share something that I achieved today as it’s difficult to talk about in RL.

I am working through complex PTSD. Along with trauma therapy I started Martial Arts 6 months ago with a trusted person.

Sessions have been going well and it has helped me regain control over my body as well a sense of empowerment. However I was finding certain moves triggering and panic inducing.

But today I faced my fears. On a 1-1 basis with my instructor we slowly worked through some things that a few months ago would’ve sent me in to blind panic. It was scary at first but I bloody did it. I can’t believe that this is the ‘new me’.

Finally seeing light at the end of a very dark tunnel. No real point to this other than needing to share it with someone as I’m wide awake in the middle of the night.

Congratulations! I did martial arts for about 15 years, it's amazing for self confidence.
What discipline are you doing?
Also wide awake in the night 🙈

That’s an amazing achievement - well done you! Well done for all your hard work - dealing with trauma is real graft.

Be kind to yourself in the next few days.

💐for you.

That's amazing!! Thanks for sharing, this is something others may want to try based on your success. You will go from strength to strength I'm sure.

That's absolutely brilliant. Well done! Martial Arts is such a powerful thing to be involved with. Thanks for telling us so good to hear good news (especially in the insomnia hour)

Thank you all so so much.

The last few months (well years really) have been far from easy, it nearly broke me.

EMDR trauma therapy has been instrumental in helping me as has the Martial Arts (Kung-Fu).

I need to get up at 5:30 to get ready for work, hardly worth going to bed now is it?

What a magnificent achievement!

Wow OP I'm thrilled for you! Such an achievement - bloody well done. Your hard work, effort and resilience had paid off and that's down to your inner strength and determination. Bring on the new you!!!! xxx

Without sounding too cheesy I just want to give others hope that it’s possible to get through trauma with the right help. I’m not there yet but I’m the right path now.

If someone had told me 6 months ago that I could have faced my fears I would’ve just laughed incredulously or cried.

Finding the right therapist and method was very important (This is the 3rd therapist I’ve seen and the 1st time I’ve tried EMDR).

Also finding the right Martial Arts class as there needs to be a lot of trust before you can train effectively (I’d known the Instructors for over a year before I actually joined the classes).

EMDR was also life changing for me so I totally know what you mean. Have a good day at work. Hope you are not too tired!

Well done. That's very brave of you to try and do that. And then to succeed as well.... Give yourself a huge pat on the back for your great achievement. x

Not exactly the same but got a huge day ahead of me tackling something new that i’m extremely nervous(excited) about and reading your post has made me feel even more positive! Welll done!!!!!!

Thank you all for your lovely comments.
@AlienSupaStar Sorry you had to go through it too. EMDR has really has saved my life, I was sceptical at first but so glad to have found something that helps.

Im absolutely knackered as only slept 10pm-1:30am last night and it’ll be a long day at work!

Its weird to think I’ve shared this with a bunch of strangers on the internet but I thank each of you for your supportive and encouraging words. I’m still very much on the journey but can finally see and end destination. For those of you going though it too I wish you strength.

Thst’s just do heartening to hear op. Bloody well done!

Hope you’re not too knackered today! Early night tonight I think!

@BitOutOfPractice Thank you. I do need an early night. Trouble is body is exhausted but brain is buzzing.